Reincarnated Aristocrat Chapter 179: Musha’s Resolution

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~Musha’s Perspective~

“Hah… hah… hah… hah…” (Musha)

　With her hand on the large catalyst machine, the new mage, Musha was breathing unevenly due to pressure and nervousness.

　Last time, many people shot magic, so Musha had thought that since many people were shooting magic, it would still be okay if she failed, but this time it was just her and Charlotte.

　If I failed, I would be in big trouble.

　That wasn’t the only reason for my nervousness.

　I am still getting used to the idea of killing people with my magic.

　If I didn’t kill them, they would kill me.

　I understand this, but still, before I cast my spell, my mind wanders through a sea of thoughts.

“I have to do it properly…” (Musha)

　My hands were trembling.

　My heartbeat is fast and deafening.

　Cold sweat traces my cheek, then it paused on my chin, before plummeting to the ground.

“Musha, calm down.” (Voice)

　Suddenly, I was startled back into focus when the person behind me called out to me.

　I was bowing down, but I raised my head and saw the person who brought me back.

　Charlotte-san, who was nearby, was looking at me with a gentle expression that was different from usual.

“I’m sure you can do it.” (Charlotte)

　She said a word in a gentle tone.

　Words that were meant to reassure me.

　Clenching my fist.

(I always wanted to change myself.) (Musha)

　I decided to go to Ars-sama’s recruitment because I was dissatisfied with myself and the environment surrounding me.

　In the Somerforce Empire, men have more power.

　This is the same in all provinces, and the province of Messiaen, where I was born, is no exception.

　It seemed like there was an unspoken rule that a woman should marry a man, should give birth to a child, and should support her family.

　So I believed that it was natural and learned housework.

　In particular, I always assumed that I would be able to live like the rest of the world without having to do any formal education.

　However, I suddenly had a thought somewhere in my mind, “Is this really what I want to do?”

　Is marriage really what I want to do?

　Is it really okay to just have a child and raise it?

　Doubts that would have never come to the mind of a normal woman plague my thoughts one after another.

　Once I started thinking, I couldn’t stop.

　However, I couldn’t talk to anyone. If I said any of this, people would have thought that I lost my marbles.

　It was at that time that he saw a sign posted by Ars-sama that he was looking for people.

　It was written that even a woman is welcome.

　Perhaps this will change my destiny.

　I believed this and so I decided to go to Canale Castle.

　When I was told that I would become a mage because I had a talent for magic, I honestly doubted that if it was true.

　Me, who had never heard of Charlotte-san, thought it was impossible for a woman to become a soldier.

　Even if I became a vassal, I somehow thought that I would have to do chores just like a maid.

　Despite my misgivings about becoming a mage, I was impressed when I activated my magic for the first time.

　At that time, I believed that the common sense that the world believed in was wrong.

　I am convinced that the doubts I had always had were not wrong.

　I’m going to be a splendid mage.

　I swore that to my heart.

(I have to steel my mind… It’s okay if you fail, but the worst thing is to be so scared that you can’t do anything.) (Musha)

　I talked and focused my heart

　Gradually, the tremors became weaker and the turmoil inside my heart was silenced.

(Charlotte-san told me that I can do it. I will definitely do it)

　I hadn’t yet had the experience of perfectly activating my magic.

　So I couldn’t trust myself completely, but I know I could trust Charlotte-san’s words.

“Well, come on. Concentrate.” (Charlotte)

　I look at the battlefield.

　A large army of enemies was approaching.

　It is our role to send magic towards that incoming enemy army.

　Following Charlotte-san’s words, I meditated, took a deep breath, and then raised my concentration to the limit.

　The tremors had stopped. My heartbeat has slowed to normal.

　I feel like I can do it.

　As I thought of this, the signal using sound magic echoed.

　Ritsu has given instructions to activate the magic.

　At the same time, Musha opened her eyes and cast her spell.

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